Cadaver Lab

Today I had the wonderful opportunity to be a part of a human cadaver dissection. I will admit that I was very hesitant about this because I know my mind likes to bring up nasty reminders of things when I am eating. But, I decided to go for it! I was the first one there waiting to get in the room. It was on a first come, first serve basis so I thought that I should be there really early because for some reason, in my crazy mind, I thought everyone would be lining up to go see this dead body. Not the case! I was the first one there for the longest time and then a few others showed up right when it was about to start. When we walked in, we had to put on our lab coats, goggles, gloves and those surgical mask things that doctors wear (I felt cool). I was looking around for the body but all I saw was this metal thing in the center of the room. It looked kind of like a operating table, so I was thinking "oh, I guess they will just wheel the body in or something". But then, the lab instructor opened it up and there, lying face down, was the body. It was a woman that I later found out was 81 and died of natural causes, but had a history of heart problems. The instructor told us to come up and not be so shy. So we all circled around the body. Its just so bizarre being right there by a lifeless human. It's like you're just waiting for them to move or do something but there they are, frozen in time. It actually seemed fake to me. But oh that smell was horrible. That was maybe the worst part actually. That formaldehyde was burning my eyes and burning my soul. Haha! Not really but it was making me sick. We peeled back the skin and Adipose tissues on the legs and back, and also separated some of the muscles but thats as far as we got today. The one thing that is bothering me, is that it looked like pumpkin seeds were coming out of the butt..I can't explain how that is even possible but I am not kidding. Also what bothers me, is knowing that this woman had a family and was more than just this empty vessel. If i knew someone was mangling say, my grandma's body, it would forever haunt me and make me sad. Anyways, I am glad I did it but I'm not sure if i will be going back because of course, at dinner time, the thought of what I saw today plagued me.

Im a dork. I promise I wont post anything so morbid EVER again.